Update on March of Dimes...

I am happy to say we have a team of 11 right now. YAY! And thanks to everyone who has signed up or donated - it means a lot to me!! We are also off to a good start with donations - $85 so far and we still have 41 days until we walk. GREAT JOB!! Samantha's brother's boss has offered to do the team shirts for $5 each, which is awesome! Thanks Vernon & Tommy! And to let everyone know I'm still hanging in there. Trying to stay busy which really helps. And I have Kayla to keep me very busy! Not sure what I'd do without her. I love her. Thanks for everyone's support through everything. Love to you ALL!!

Willy J's Angels...

Here is the name of the team for March of Dimes. Go to www.marchforbabies.org and click on "Join a Team" and search for "Willy J's Angels". I plan on getting t-shirts done for the team members so let me know your shirt size if you want to be part of the team. THANKS!!

March of Dimes walk...

I just signed up for the March of Dimes walk in Austin on May 9th. I walked 2 years ago with Jason & Kayla with some people from work. I was waiting to sign up this year because it was right around my due date, so I wasn't sure if I'd be able to do it. Right now I'm just an individual walker, but I plan on creating a family team in memory of William. I would love to have a huge team, so if anyone would like to join please let me know. My personal email is punkifrog@austin.rr.com or you can just leave a comment on here. I will let everyone know the name of the team as soon as I figure that out. I believe you can just search for the team name on the March of Dimes website to join. Again thanks to everyone for everything.

Has it really been 2 weeks...

Wow!! Seriously the days have been flying. Today is the first day I have not been on the move since leaving the hospital. Whether it was getting the last things ready for William's memorial service or getting stuff ready for Kayla's 3rd bday party. Man! My mom just left yesterday, so it was just me & Kayla for the first time last night. I thought it would be hard, but we (really I) did ok. I really hate to say this but it really seems like a dream, kinda like I was never even pregnant. Everything happened so damn fast that it was like I wasn't even there. I know I have tons of pictures & movies, but I'm missing the one piece that I wish I had so badly to make it all seem real. I still can't believe all of this has happened to us. I know I will never understand so I guess I shouldn't dwell on that because it'll just make me crazy. I need to be strong for my little girl and myself. And I really don't know how I'm doing it, I just am. I can't imagine where I'd be right now if I didn't have lil Miss Kayla. At least I know my handsome William is with his loving Daddy, probably playing Xbox 360(since I never let him buy one), the Wii or showing him how to be the greatest artist EVER & having the best time together. Kayla & I will just take it one day at a time and remember them EVERYDAY for the rest of our lives. Thanks for everyone's thoughts, prayers & support.

Slideshow...

Here is the beautiful slideshow my friend, Crystal, created for William's memorial service. For those who don't know, William's face was very bruised due to the lack of oxygen throughout the pregnancy (something I just found out today) so his face is very dark compared to the rest of his body. But he is still my handsome little man. Hope you like the video.

Memorial Service for William...

Thursday, March 19th, 2009


1pm (small reception to follow)


Good Shepherd Lutheran Church


700 W. Whitestone Blvd.


Cedar Park, Texas 78613


Church Phone: 512-258-6227

William Jason is here...

He was born March 11th at 6:24pm. Weighed in at 2lbs 13ozs. And was 14.25 inches. Unfortunately he was still born. I hoped so bad that he would at least have a heart beat, but I had a feeling that wouldn't happen. He had many visitors tonight. We had Sandy with Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep here taking pictures. She was so awesome and took many many pictures. I am very very tired, it has been a very long day - I'm barely awake typing this, haven't slept at all today. I am going to try and sleep now and snuggle with my little handsome boy. Thanks for everyone's prayers & thoughts.

So...

I woke up this morning and thought I was leaking amniotic fluid. So I called the doctor and they told me to come to hospital to make sure that's what it was. Samantha met me up at the hospital. They checked me and sure enough I had a high leak. My doctor went ahead and broke my water the rest of the way. She checked me and I was at 1cm. I have received my epidural even though I was not having any painful contractions. So my little boy will be here today or tomorrow. Please keep us in your thoughts & prayers. I will keep you updated.