Doctor's appointment 022709...

I had another appointment today. I'm weighing in at a whole 113 lbs, it really seems like I should be more just because I look so huge. I don't think I'll gain 30 lbs with William like I did with Kayla, but we will see. William's heart rate was 147 which is awesome and my belly is measuring a little smaller than what it should be, so still no excess amniotic fluid. Samantha had a few questions for Dr. Irvin that she was able to answer and help us. She suggested I start taking an iron pill because I'm not anemic but I'm the low end of the normal range - may have something to do with me being tired all the time. I also told her that I felt like I was getting depressed again and she gave me some samples of an anti-depressant, so I hope those help because I feel like I'm not there 100% for Kayla (and NEED to be) and I know it'll just get worse with the upcoming months. I go back again in 2 weeks and hopefully will be having another sonogram then if not sooner. I will be 31 weeks tomorrow, only 9 more weeks to go. Man the days are just flying by... :(

Keepsakes that I will cherish forever...

Samantha contacted this organization called Now I Lay me Down to Sleep which provides a photography service free of charge to families that know their babies will not survive for very long after birth. Samantha talked to a lady named Sandy, who is with All About Me Photography and she said she was awesome. She will be at the hospital after William is born to take pictures. I'm glad we will have someone there to take pictures of our time with him. Sandy is also going to provide us with a maternity session to capture the moments while I'm still pregnant. I'm very excited that she will be taking pictures of me while I'm big and fat. HAHA. But I'm really excited to have Kayla participate in the session too. I just need to figure out when to do it. It seems like I'm running out of time so quickly. The month of March is already filling up quickly - I'm super busy. I have Kayla's dress, but need to figure out what I'm going to wear.


I also just bought a belly cast kit & an infant hand/foot casting kit from Casting Keepsakes. I can't wait to do the belly cast, I've always wanted to do one, but never did one with Kayla. I already have Kayla's hand & foot in a mold - so it'll be nice to have one for William too.

Something we might do for Kayla:

A ring that I want to get for myself (I used the April birthstone for William just incase he comes early - if not it'll be the darker green stone)

Onesies that I HAD to buy...

Check out these onesies that I got from Walmart this past weekend.

I think this last one is the BEST one.

Outfits for my lil' man

Aunt Sammy bought this for William. Says "Property of Mom forever"

I bought this for William. What looks like polka dots is actually little stars, in memory of Daddy.

Doctor's appointment - February 3rd

I had my appointment on Tuesday. Everything looked great - William's heartbeat was good, my fluid levels were normal. Had another sonogram - see the cute pictures below. William is measuring a couple of weeks behind where he should be, but Kayla always did too. I just have little babies. Kayla was only 6lbs 10oz, so I don't think William will be much more than 5lbs (if that), just from following other babies with the same condition. And we found out that we will not be able to donate his organs because they don't use organs from newborns because they are usually too small. Oh well, at least we asked. But it would have been nice for him to help out another little baby.

William's face - look at those chubby cheeks. :) I can't wait to squish 'em!!

William's hand. He's holding something, but I'm not quite sure what it is. I'm going to go with the umbilical cord. These 4D pics are very strange.

William's legs - knees at top and then down to his feet.

Poem

I thought of you and closed my eyes, And prayed to God today. Asked what makes a mother and I know I heard Him say, A mother has a baby. This we know is true. But God, can you be a mother, when your baby's not with you? Yes, you can. He replied with confidence in His voice. I give many women babies. When they leave is not their choice. Some I send for a lifetime, and others for a day. And some I send to fill your womb but there's no need to stay. I just don't understand this, God, I want my baby here. I took a breath and cleared my throat and then I cried a tear. I wish I could show you what your child is doing today. If you could see your child smile with other children and say," "I went to earth to learn a lesson of life and love and fear. My Mommy loved me, oh so much, I got to come straight here. I feel so lucky to have a mom who had so much love for me. I learned my lesson very quickly. My Mommy set me free." I miss my Mommy, oh so much, but I visither each day. And when she goes to sleep at night, on her pillow is where I lay. I stroke her hair and kiss her cheek and whisper in her ear, 'Mommy, don't be sad today, I'm your baby and I am here.' " So you see, my dear sweet one, your baby is okay. Your baby is here in My Home and this is where he'll stay. He'll wait for you with Me until your lesson is through. And on that day that you come Home, he'll be waiting at the gates for you. So now you see what makes a Mother... It's the feeling in your heart. It's the love you had so much of, Right from the very start. Though some on earth may not realize you are a Mother, Until their time is done. They'll be up here with Me one day, And know you're the best one.

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