Wednesday, November 11, 2009


Today is William's 8 month birthday. Wow! Really?!?! 8 months?!?! Time goes by so fast these days! I miss him so much EVERY DAY!

My 28th birthday was on Monday. I think I cried 5 times that day - just wasn't a great bday for me. This is the 1st year without both of my boys and my wonderful Memaw. My friends and family tried so hard to make it a great bday for me, but I just couldn't allow it to be. But my 3 wonderful angels knew it was a hard day for me and they gave me a pretty amazing present...

I was driving home to get Kayla so I could drop her off so I could go out to dinner with some friends. It was a pretty blah day with rain and all...and as I was getting closer to my turn for my house I noticed a rainbow (just a little one I thought) and it seemed to get brighter and brighter as I got closer. And when I turned onto my street I saw the biggest most beautiful rainbow I had ever seen before. I just started to cry and it started raining harder and I just know that was them crying because they were not here for me. And the rainbow started to fade away and was completely gone before I got to the stop sign on the other end. I thought about pulling out my phone to take a picture, but there is no way I could have gotten the whole thing - it was HUGE. I will remember that forever - that was a great bday gift from them.


This is pretty much what it looked like before I turned onto the street:

And this is like what I saw when I turned (without all the buildings):


  1. I am not here to patch the holes in your heart.....I am here to catch the blood that falls from them.

    Thats my promise to you always.

  2. What a rough day. I am glad you got that rainbow for just a little bit. (((hugs)))

  3. I saw the same rainbow, it was awesome! I have always thought that since Jason passed that I would know he is hard at work doing art when I see those rainbows. Glad this could give you some comfort. You are doing so great!

  4. I just came across your blog while going thru some blogs and then checking out their links to other blogs. I am so sorry about your hubby and your baby. I can tell you that rainbow is a sign from your baby that they are safe in heaven and hear you when they talk to you.

    In March 2009 my darling hubby Mike passed on from a sudden heart attack. We were married almost 23 yrs & I still cannot believe he is gone. It hurts so much. Being a homemaker I could not afford to live in my home so I had to move in with my folks and rent out our home to get income. In Nov I went with my folks to Nags Head, NC. Every yr hubby & I would go there with my folks in May for a week. I was out on the balcony talking to Mike. I told him if you can hear me up there in heaven please send me a sign. I prayed and asked God to send me a sign if Mike could hear me. It had been raining. All of a sudden the sky opened up and a beautiful rainbow appeared. I was able to take pics of it and film it. That rainbow is so precious to me and I know yours is to you. When I saw your post on this, I just had to comment. Peace and God Bless...