6 weeks...

So yesterday was 6 weeks since my precious baby William became an angel. I still can't believe it. I should still be pregnant - not due til May 2nd. Out of all the women's stories I've read I have not seen one that has not had to be induced. I guess I can say I'm one of a kind. :) But I did always say that my lil man would break my water. He sure knew how to take my breath away with those powerful kicks to the ribs. I loved every one of them though. I am still not quite sure what God has in store for me, why he's given me all of this heartache. I don't think my heart can take anymore. Not really sure how I've taken all that has happened to me so far. I just wish one day I'd wake up and my Jason & William would be back and we'd be a complete family of 4 and all that has happened had been a horrible nightmare. Oh man do I want that so bad. For my daughter to have HER daddy back and be the BEST big sister to her lil baby brother. I know everything happens for a reason, just wish I knew what the reason was.

Here's a little update: I started back to work on Monday, so far so good. Everyone I work with is so awesome and VERY supportive. My March of Dimes team - Willy J's Angels - has 27 walkers not include our children. We've already raised almost $1300 which is so awesome - I set the team goal at $2000, really being optimistic (which is so not me), but I think we actually will make it. We have 3 fundraisers to do and we are having a garage sale this Saturday and I'm donating all money from the sale to the MOD and we still have 16 days left til we walk. I would also like to share a picture of a BEAUTIFUL sight that I saw Tuesday morning when I was leaving the house. This picture is not the best quality, but it's a picture of the moon and 2 stars - I like to say it's my Jason & William saying "Good Morning" (the second star is kinda hard to see, it's on the right side almost to the edge of the pic).

It kinda took me by surprise because when we got home the night before there were tons of stars in the sky. Whenever we get home and it's dark Kayla always says Hi to her daddy & baby William - she gets so excited or "exciting" as she says. :) She's so funny. A few months ago she used to say "Look at all the Daddy stars, Mom" - every time she sees a star, no matter where it is or what it's on, she says "That's my Daddy". I love it, she's too amazing.

Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep pictures

All,


Here are pictures & a slideshow from Sandy Allen, the photographer that was there for me taking pictures when William was born. She works with the organization, Now I Lay me Down to Sleep – she was awesome. These pictures are all great. I do warn you that you will see all the emotions that we had during the delivery – so crying may happen. You will not see anything graphic, but you will see my bare thigh (you may not even notice) and the top part of my breast – just wanted to warn you. There are pictures of William of course. Sandy touched up the discoloration on his face so he does look different from the pictures some of you have seen already. She is sending me a CD with all the pictures & slideshow on them, so I can make copies of any of them if any of you would like. I also have pictures on Snapfish from Samantha & Crystal’s cameras if you would like to see those please email me back so I can give you access to see them.


Pictures
http://www.allaboutmephotography.com/gallery - click on William, password is “Wendt”


Slideshow – has songs, so you may want to turn music off if you are at work.
http://www.sandyallenphotography.com/wendt.html


Love to all,

Sara

Sandwritten

UPDATE - Here is the new picture of WILLIAM JASON. I also found another site that does the same type of pictures, but they have the sunset in the background. I think I'm going to contact them too.

Thought I'd share the picture of William's name written in the sands of Hawaii. They will be redoing the picture as I requested William Jason and they only did William. I will post the new picture once I get it. I'm excited to print this out and frame it to put in the curio cabinet that I'm going to buy to match Jason's.